Nightmares

One of the worst things about sleeping alone? Not having anyone to wake me up when I'm having a nightmare. I don't think I dream like most people. My nightmares seem so real. Technicolor and surround sound.  Sometimes I wake up screaming. Fall out of bed onto my knees, gasping for breath. Sob. Or my heart pounds so hard, I physically can't cry. I guess I got spoiled having someone there for four years to wake me up before my nightmare could actually get too bad. I almost forgot what it was like to wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat, trying to figure out if my dream was real or not. Then being afraid to go back to sleep. Sometimes for days.